There is nothing new about my condition and treatment. I still have my infusion therapy every three weeks and I’ll get my scans repeated in the next weeks to evaluate my response to treatment and determine the next steps. This reminds me that I don’t like to wait. I don’t like “waiting rooms.” It is in the “waiting rooms” of life where we face our “ghosts”. My “ghost” is to think that any ache or discomfort is that something is wrong…terribly wrong.
Several years ago my mom, my siblings and I were in a waiting room while my dad underwent surgery. He had some complications after a kidney transplant. That day we waited for so long…and all of a sudden we observed hospital staff bringing a dialysis machine to the operating room. We thought the worst. We thought that the surgery went wrong and that he was in dialysis again.
I stood up and started walking through one of the hospital corridors humming a tune. There were no lyrics yet but my heart was comforted and encouraged that evening. My dad’s surgery went really well, the dialysis machine was not for him, and that day I learned something about the “ghosts” that haunt us in the “waiting rooms” of life.
Weeks later, while reading Psalm 40: 1-3 I knew that I had found the lyrics of the song that I was singing that night:
“I waited patiently for the Lord to help me,
and he turned to me and heard my cry.
He lifted me out of the pit of despair,
out of the mud and the mire.
He set my feet on solid ground
and steadied me as I walked along.
He has given me a new song to sing,
a hymn of praise to our God.
Many will see what he has done and be amazed.
They will put their trust in the Lord.”
This psalm reminds us that:
• God does not follow our deadlines. He does what he wants, when he wants it and how he wants it.
• He is present in our “waiting rooms”. He turns to us and hears our cry. He is our very present help.
• The biggest problem is our despair because it is like a slimy pit. It is shaky and unstable ground. The despair is fertile ground for fear. But He sets our feet on solid ground. Jesus is our solid ground, the solid rock where we stand.
• There will be a new song after the pit, a hymn of praise after the “waiting rooms.” It is not any song; it is a song that will be a blessing to others. God gives us a new song for others to see what He has done so that they will put their trust in the Lord Jesus.
We praise the Lord who trades the pit and the waiting room for songs of grace and hymns of praise.
The song of that evening is available in the new album “Plan de Vuelo” by 33dc (available in iTunes):Aleluya (Hallelujah -Free translation)
You heard my cry, you listened
From the pit I raised my eyes to you
And you turned to me
Your love, perfect love that drives out my fear
Your peace is the guard of my mind and my heart
On solid ground, I sing a new song